tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-90370444019824449222024-03-14T00:13:37.407-07:00vicious circlerajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-17831314456119998972010-02-18T09:54:00.000-08:002010-02-18T10:08:00.405-08:00Random thought<div>So much of faith, So much of lie</div><div>So many times i have seen a faithful man die.</div><div>The enigma of underworld is so deep,</div><div>That makes a blissful mother weep.</div><div>Looking at the dying child in her lap,</div><div>It makes my flesh creep.</div><div><br /></div><div>So much of bruise, So much of boom,</div><div>So manythimes i have seen,</div><div>a successful man's doom.</div><div><br /></div><div>I wander here, I wander there,</div><div>I hear the cries everywhere,</div><div>I ran everywhere to make them evoke</div><div>but all my efforts ended in Smoke.</div><div>I lie in a corner like a filthy Rose,</div><div>With only hope that someday i can make Humanity arose.</div><div><br /></div><div>So much of pain, So much of rain</div><div>So many times i have seen blood flowing in the drains.</div><div><br /></div><div>Looking at the fruitful trees,</div><div>I think of heaven and life with ease.</div><div>After So much of Pain and Suffering,</div><div>a day will come with hopeful spring.</div>rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-45130549928208034642009-08-22T21:26:00.000-07:002009-08-22T21:28:52.939-07:00Death Of MeI should've seen all the signs all around me<br />But I was comfortable inside these wounds<br />So go ahead and take another piece of me now<br />While we all bow down to you<br /><br />You tear me down and then you pick me up<br />You take it all and still it's not enough<br />You try to tell me you can heal me<br />But I'm still bleeding<br />And you will be the death of me<br /><br />How can you help my affliction<br />If you're the sickness and not the cure<br />Too long I've faked this addiction<br />Another sacrifice to make us pure<br /><br />You tear me down and then you pick me up<br />You take it all and still it's not enough<br />You try to tell me you can heal me<br />But I'm still bleeding<br />And you will be the death of me<br /><br />You tear me down and then you pick me up<br />You take it all and still it's not enough<br />You try to tell me you can heal me<br />But I'm still bleeding<br />And you will be the death of me<br /><br />I won't forget<br />I cannot forget this<br />I won't forget<br />I'll never forget this (4x)<br /><br />I know I can never prove this illusion<br />You aren't the one that I thought you were<br />And so I learned to embrace this delusion<br />The line that separates us starts to blur<br /><br />You tear me down and then you pick me up<br />You take it all and still it's not enough<br />You try to tell me you can heal me<br />But I'm still bleeding<br />And you will be the death of me<br />And you will be the death of me <br /><br />I won't forget<br />I cannot forget this<br />And you will be the death of merajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-19737355631920372922009-05-18T16:24:00.000-07:002009-05-18T16:36:35.598-07:00FALLING BACKTime pases. Even when it seems Impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind the bruise. It passes Unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me(New Moon).<br /><br />We Hope Against Hope that everything is going to be fine, the hole inside us will heal with time but the pain keeps on comming back. May be there is no way to get rid of it, May be i need to live with it.<br />Sometime it wonder "Do i really want to forget the Past or I like to go back and live it again". There are few things that we cannot forget and these things are always there in our subconscious, we may get distracted for a while but again it comes back to us. I tried Hard enough to get away from it still it comes back with a vengeance.rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-4939532597770199002009-01-22T03:48:00.000-08:002009-01-22T04:02:12.837-08:00Boulevard Of Broken DreamsI walk a lonely road<br />The only one that I have ever known<br />Don't know where it goes<br />But it's home to me<br />and I walk alone<br /><br />I walk this empty street<br />On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams<br />Where the city sleeps<br />and I'm the only one<br /> and I walk alone <br /><br />I walk alone<br />I walk alone <br /><br />My shadow's the only one that walks beside me<br />My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating<br />Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me<br />'Til then I walk alone <br /><br />I'm walking down the line<br />That divides me somewhere in my mind<br />On the border line<br />Of the edge and where I walk alone<br /><br />Read between the lines<br />What's fucked up and everything's alright<br />Check my vital signs<br />To know I'm still alive and I walk alone<br /><br />I walk alone<br />I walk alone <br /><br />My shadow's the only one that walks beside me<br />My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating<br />Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me<br />'Til then I walk alone<br /><br />I walk alone<br />I walk a...<br /><br />I walk this empty street<br />On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams<br />Where the city sleeps<br />And I'm the only one and I walk a...<br /><br />My shadow's the only one that walks beside me<br />My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating<br />Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me<br />'Til then I walk alone...rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-47586413883652676162008-12-17T16:43:00.000-08:002008-12-17T16:46:25.892-08:00Happy to see the resultsThis week has been quite boring except the cricket match. In office I have been fighting over my rating for the PBC (Personal business commitment) and at last I succeeded in getting what I deserved. I had to talk to my manager’s manger about it and i validated my scores. It’s been a healthy competition in team but I have the best rating (Proud to say that). Hope this Christmas will bring good luck and fortune.rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-24319142602269845122008-11-24T20:03:00.000-08:002008-11-24T20:12:06.272-08:00Crestfallenwho am I to need you when I'm down<br />where are you when I need you around<br />your life is not your own<br /><br />and all I ask you<br /> is for another chance<br /> another way around you<br /> to live by circumstance, once again<br /><br />who am I to need you now<br /> to ask you why to tell you no<br />to deserve your love and sympathy<br /> you were never meant to belong to me<br /><br /> and you may go, but I know you won't leave<br /> too many years built into memories<br />your life is not your own<br /><br />who am I to need you now<br /> to ask you why to tell you no<br /> to deserve your love and sympathy<br /> you were never meant to belong to me<br /><br />who am I to you?<br />along the way<br />I lost my faith<br /><br />and as you were, you'll be again<br />to mold like clay, to break like dirt<br />to tear me up in your sympathy you were never meant to belong to me<br />you were never meant to belong to me<br />you were never meant to belong to me<br /><br />who am I?rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-43720903590689777452008-11-18T22:22:00.000-08:002008-11-18T22:26:39.456-08:00StruggleThe one who does not know the struggle of life is either an immature soul, or a soul who has risen above the life of this world. The object of a human being in this world is to attain to the perfection of humanity, and therefore it is necessary that man should go through what we call the struggle of life.<br />Because life means a continual battle, one’s success, failure, happiness, or unhappiness mostly depends upon one’s knowledge of this battle. Whatever be one’s occupation in life, whatever be one’s knowledge, if one lacks the knowledge of the battle of life one lacks the most important knowledge of all.<br />As soon as a man loses the courage to go through the struggle of life, the burden of the whole world falls on his head. But he who goes on struggling through life, he alone makes his way.<br />One must study the nature of life, one must understand the psychology of this struggle. In order to understand this struggle one must see that there are three sides to it: struggle with oneself, struggle with others, and struggle with circumstances. One person may be capable of struggling with himself, but that is not sufficient. Another is able to struggle with others, but even that is not sufficient. A third person may answer the demands of circumstance, but this is not enough either; what is needed is that all three should be studied and learnt, and one must be able to manage the struggle in all three directions.<br />The one who struggles with himself first is the wisest, for once he has struggled with himself, which is the most difficult struggle, the other struggles will become easy for him.<br /><br />By Sufi orderrajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-39483937724839722652008-09-18T10:22:00.000-07:002008-09-18T10:23:12.813-07:00Another gud storyWedding revenge<br />Here is a true story about a recent wedding that took place at Clemson University.This was a huge wedding with about 300 guests. After the wedding, at the reception, the groom got up on stage at the microphone to talk to the crowd. He said that he wanted to thank everyone for coming, many from long distances, to support them at their wedding. He especially wanted to thank the bride's and groom's families for coming and to thank his new father-in-law for providing such a fabulous reception.To thank everyone for coming and bringing gifts and everything, he said he wanted to give everyone a special gift from just him. So, taped to the bottom of everyone's chair was a manila envelope, including the wedding party. He said that this was his gift to everyone, and told everyone to open the envelopes.Inside each manila envelope was an 8x10 picture of his best man having sex with the bride. He had gotten suspicious of the two of them and hired a private detective to trail them weeks prior to the wedding.After he stood there and watched the people's reactions for a couple of minutes, he turned to the best man and said "Screw you," he turned to the bride and said "Screw you," and then he turned to the dumbfounded crowd and said, "I'm out of here." He had the marriage annulled first thing that Monday morning.While most of us would have broken off the engagement immediately after finding out about the affair, this guy goes through with it anyway as if nothing was wrong. His revenge?Making the bride's parents pay over $32,000 for 300 guests at the wedding and reception, letting everyone know exactly what did happen, and, best of all, trashing the bride's and best man's reputations in front of all of their friends, their entire families, i.e. their parents, brothers, sisters, grandparents, nieces and nephews, etc.rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-70242223113520329892008-09-10T12:16:00.000-07:002008-11-24T20:40:35.310-08:00WAITING...for the vacation.<br />The world has been waiting for todays event that's happening on the french-swiss border..."the big bang experiment". Few crazy people really thought that the world is gonna end today. oops...i never thought about these things, iam just waiting for another 9 days to go so that i can go for vacation. i have been waiting for this moment and suddenly this news appears about the Large Hadron Collider which is goona create black holes and the whole world would be consumed by it.freeky.....anyway i dont care...lets hope every thing goes fine and we dont have anything to worry about.rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-75428637327669389992008-08-28T05:04:00.000-07:002008-08-28T05:06:27.350-07:00Weekend fun- DOA4wow!!!dead or alive 4 is indeed one of the best games i have ever played the gameplay has gotten better,the graphics are perfect.Alpha 152 is probably the one of the most hardest boss to beat in time mode.Each charecter has their own strength and weekness.once you get used to a perticular charecter and you know his moves then its easy to defeat opponents.<br />The main strategy in this game is getting used to the opponents attack pattern and you should be quick enough to counter attack.I have been playing with my friends ands its good to thrash them but they are learning the moves quickly.rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-77990652674655729702008-08-13T19:23:00.001-07:002010-02-21T12:21:00.476-08:00rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-7312739549370092312008-08-12T12:21:00.000-07:002008-11-24T20:48:54.784-08:00Messed UpToday i felt like running away from everyone but then i thought am i trying to escape myself or the world around me. I still dont have the answer for this.I have this habit of not sharing my feeling with anyone whether they are my parents or my siblings, the reason that i can give is "that i dont want to show that iam weak or fragile" but somewhere inside iam breaking down. When iam emotionally hurt i try to keep it to myself rather than sharing it and a time comes when you get so frustated that you do something nasty.I try to overcome this by drinking a lot, that helps a bit but dosent works for long.<br />I dont know when i can break the protective barrier and talk to someone about it. I have this mental block that when you open up to anyone you become vulnerable emotionally and it would be easier for that person to hurt more.... i might be wrong but that how iam.<br />I dont shere these thing's with anyone but today iam putting this on my blog to avoid drinking. Lets see what the future holds for me....rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-44054097661595747682008-08-07T19:37:00.000-07:002008-08-07T19:39:42.680-07:00YOU ALWAYS GET WHAT YOU DESERVEA Charlotte, NC lawyer purchased a box of very rare and expensive cigars, then insured them against fire, among other things. Within a month, having smoked his entire stockpile of these great cigars and without yet having made even his first premium payment on the policy, the lawyer filed claim against the insurance company. In his claim, the lawyer stated the cigars were lost "in a series of small fires." The insurance company refused to pay, citing the obvious reason that the man had consumed the cigars in the normal fashion. The lawyer sued... and WON!<br />(Stay with me.)<br />In delivering the ruling, the judge agreed with the insurance company that the claim was frivolous. The judge stated nevertheless, that the lawyer "held a policy from the company in which it had warranted that the cigars were insurable and also guaranteed that it would insure them against fire, without defining what is considered to be unacceptable fire" and was obligated to pay the claim. Rather than endure lengthy and costly appeal process, the insurance company accepted the ruling and paid $15,000 to the lawyer for his loss of the rare cigars lost in the "fires."<br />NOW FOR THE BEST PART...<br />After the lawyer cashed the check, the insurance company had him arrested on 24 counts of ARSON!!! With his own insurance claim and testimony from the previous case being used against him, the lawyer was convicted of intentionally burning his insured property and was sentenced to 24 months in jail and a $24,000 fine.<br />This is a true story and was the First Place winner in the recent Criminal Lawyers Award Contest.rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-245857398431812922008-07-31T15:21:00.000-07:002008-07-31T15:39:33.023-07:00I'am back again..I have been working hard these days to find something to do....dont have much work at office. so i started reading a book called "when good people have affairs". Its very controversial but there are may aspects of life thats true. I wont say much about this book as i want you people to read this.rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9037044401982444922.post-33089074525890665532008-04-25T12:04:00.000-07:002008-07-31T15:20:36.365-07:00life never stops.we always don't get what we want and there is something that we went so desperatly that we do anything to get it. when that dosent worksout we get dishartened and life just stops for us.<br />it happens with everybody but does the life really stops?<br />No it dosen't. we always need someone to support us and helps us to move on.we keep on trying to make our life simpler and it gets more complicated.we dont try to understand it we always try to force things since we belive that we can change every thing and it doese'nt works in this way .<br />From my past relationship i have learnt that "We get into a relationship and every thing seems to be beautiful and but when we seperate it gives lot's of pain so i decided that i would never get into any other relationship.....but u always need someone in ur Life....life goes on and we again find someone who is perfect for us.....its a vicious circle.You will get to know about it once you breakup from ur first relationship and get into another one."rajhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12390594623011132490noreply@blogger.com1