Crestfallen

who am I to need you when I'm down
where are you when I need you around
your life is not your own

and all I ask you
is for another chance
another way around you
to live by circumstance, once again

who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me

and you may go, but I know you won't leave
too many years built into memories
your life is not your own

who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me

who am I to you?
along the way
I lost my faith

and as you were, you'll be again
to mold like clay, to break like dirt
to tear me up in your sympathy you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me

who am I?

Struggle

The one who does not know the struggle of life is either an immature soul, or a soul who has risen above the life of this world. The object of a human being in this world is to attain to the perfection of humanity, and therefore it is necessary that man should go through what we call the struggle of life.
Because life means a continual battle, one’s success, failure, happiness, or unhappiness mostly depends upon one’s knowledge of this battle. Whatever be one’s occupation in life, whatever be one’s knowledge, if one lacks the knowledge of the battle of life one lacks the most important knowledge of all.
As soon as a man loses the courage to go through the struggle of life, the burden of the whole world falls on his head. But he who goes on struggling through life, he alone makes his way.
One must study the nature of life, one must understand the psychology of this struggle. In order to understand this struggle one must see that there are three sides to it: struggle with oneself, struggle with others, and struggle with circumstances. One person may be capable of struggling with himself, but that is not sufficient. Another is able to struggle with others, but even that is not sufficient. A third person may answer the demands of circumstance, but this is not enough either; what is needed is that all three should be studied and learnt, and one must be able to manage the struggle in all three directions.
The one who struggles with himself first is the wisest, for once he has struggled with himself, which is the most difficult struggle, the other struggles will become easy for him.

By Sufi order

Another gud story

Wedding revenge
Here is a true story about a recent wedding that took place at Clemson University.This was a huge wedding with about 300 guests. After the wedding, at the reception, the groom got up on stage at the microphone to talk to the crowd. He said that he wanted to thank everyone for coming, many from long distances, to support them at their wedding. He especially wanted to thank the bride's and groom's families for coming and to thank his new father-in-law for providing such a fabulous reception.To thank everyone for coming and bringing gifts and everything, he said he wanted to give everyone a special gift from just him. So, taped to the bottom of everyone's chair was a manila envelope, including the wedding party. He said that this was his gift to everyone, and told everyone to open the envelopes.Inside each manila envelope was an 8x10 picture of his best man having sex with the bride. He had gotten suspicious of the two of them and hired a private detective to trail them weeks prior to the wedding.After he stood there and watched the people's reactions for a couple of minutes, he turned to the best man and said "Screw you," he turned to the bride and said "Screw you," and then he turned to the dumbfounded crowd and said, "I'm out of here." He had the marriage annulled first thing that Monday morning.While most of us would have broken off the engagement immediately after finding out about the affair, this guy goes through with it anyway as if nothing was wrong. His revenge?Making the bride's parents pay over $32,000 for 300 guests at the wedding and reception, letting everyone know exactly what did happen, and, best of all, trashing the bride's and best man's reputations in front of all of their friends, their entire families, i.e. their parents, brothers, sisters, grandparents, nieces and nephews, etc.

WAITING...for the vacation.
The world has been waiting for todays event that's happening on the french-swiss border..."the big bang experiment". Few crazy people really thought that the world is gonna end today. oops...i never thought about these things, iam just waiting for another 9 days to go so that i can go for vacation. i have been waiting for this moment and suddenly this news appears about the Large Hadron Collider which is goona create black holes and the whole world would be consumed by it.freeky.....anyway i dont care...lets hope every thing goes fine and we dont have anything to worry about.

Weekend fun- DOA4

wow!!!dead or alive 4 is indeed one of the best games i have ever played the gameplay has gotten better,the graphics are perfect.Alpha 152 is probably the one of the most hardest boss to beat in time mode.Each charecter has their own strength and weekness.once you get used to a perticular charecter and you know his moves then its easy to defeat opponents.
The main strategy in this game is getting used to the opponents attack pattern and you should be quick enough to counter attack.I have been playing with my friends ands its good to thrash them but they are learning the moves quickly.

Messed Up

Today i felt like running away from everyone but then i thought am i trying to escape myself or the world around me. I still dont have the answer for this.I have this habit of not sharing my feeling with anyone whether they are my parents or my siblings, the reason that i can give is "that i dont want to show that iam weak or fragile" but somewhere inside iam breaking down. When iam emotionally hurt i try to keep it to myself rather than sharing it and a time comes when you get so frustated that you do something nasty.I try to overcome this by drinking a lot, that helps a bit but dosent works for long.
I dont know when i can break the protective barrier and talk to someone about it. I have this mental block that when you open up to anyone you become vulnerable emotionally and it would be easier for that person to hurt more.... i might be wrong but that how iam.
I dont shere these thing's with anyone but today iam putting this on my blog to avoid drinking. Lets see what the future holds for me....